That was when I realized the irony of so many doors needing repairs, replacement in one year. The same year I have been stepping through new doors in my life. On the cusp of changing career direction again, I cannot help but wonder at the synchronicity. This year I have attempted to step through new doors of opportunity, and although parts of it worked, some parts did not. Just like the doors on my home. Opportunities do not always work perfectly. They question is, "Do they work well enough? Well enough to keep me warm and safe? If the doors worked perfectly, would that be enough? Or would I become bored and long for a new door or something else to change?" We crave change and yet, are fearful of it at the same time. However, as Dan Millman says, "the only difference between fear and excitement is your attitude."
In February, during one of our great blizzards, my garden door on my porch blew open, bringing the blizzard with it. As the storm swirled around in the porch, it promptly forced the steel door to the house to open. In my haste to keep the outside, outside, I slammed the front door and cracked the wood inside of the steel door. I finally barricade the garden doors closed but was forced to use the back door until the snow and ice melted. In April, I ordered a new sill for the garden doors and had the new steel door for the house installed. The sill piece for the porch doors has arrived and I it is time to put it in place. As I get to work, I quickly realize perhaps I should try to adjust the door frame and improve how it closes, thus preventing a potential repeat of last winter. Hours later... it operates as it did when I started. I tackle the cupboard door that also doesn't close properly. Removing hinges, putting hinges back on. Still doesn't close perfectly. Sigh... I think of my friend who recently helped me with replacing a door in June. I left to do something else and I returned with the door operating perfectly. And this was not the first door. Figuratively and physically.